I have had a quote in my purse for awhile. My Mom and I were relaxing at Barnes and Nobles having yummy coffees. We were reading this book by Melissa Kirsch* which was written for girls. It basically has any question you want answered about life, money, cooking, dating, laundry (YES, laundry!!), fashion, health, family, and your home!
We came upon the "jobs" section and the author had added a personal quote which I felt (and still feel) that I identify with on several levels! Here it is:
I had the most fun temping when I had very little to do and could sit and read a magazine with impunity. Then the terror would set in: Is this who I am? Am I the girl who sits at a desk reading a magazine known to no one, over-educated and underutilized? Is this my identity? Am I the temp for life?
I often wonder these same thoughts? I am a woman with a masters' degree. I am a professional with ten years work experience in my chosen career. I have been published in educational magazines (and I have seen those ideas in action in schools where I have subbed). Yet, today, I am working two part time jobs. Both jobs give me satisfaction for different reasons. When I teach a good lesson, I give the kids knowledge. When I help a woman find a pair of jeans she loves, I give that woman a feeling of beauty and satisfaction! These aspects of my jobs make me happy!
On the flip side, there is that part of me that for the past five years has wondered "Why am I still working as a substitute teacher? Why have I been so close ( down to the final two ), and yet passed over? Will I ever have my own classroom again?" I just do not understand.
I do believe that everything happens for a reason, but sometimes when I have enough rejection letters to wallpaper my bathroom, I wonder: WHAT IS MY LIFE PLAN??
* Here is a link to that book! Enjoy! Melissa Kirsch
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